Birthday?

My birthdays is coming soon 1 week more...
This year? I donno what will happen..
Just lets it happen by nature..^^
However, Im just can ensure that I nt will down by easily..


Start from my mom gone, i had prepared what will happen on future..
All b'cuz I no choice..
My family tree there, my uncle, my aunt (father that sides) all look down on me...
If Im down, what will be next?
I cant imagine it..
My dad? He is also cant work few years ago..
His property also will divide by 4 part give my others bro & also me..


But I not hope it will become true..
What I wrote on here, is just for vent, I not need you all sympathize..
What Im feeling, you all not will know..
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Who try to block my ways, I'll lets that guys down 1st..


My birthday? Which of the days my mother suffering on painful..
What my wish? If can, Im just wanna my mom can re-life again..
But it will never happens in real world..
Happy family is that so hard to achieve?

Sometimes I  wanna cry..
But I cant cry infront u all..
Tear drops inside my heart no one will know..
Im fortunate, but most of you more felicity..